The article on both/and is stirring things up. And that's useful.
I am in fact needy. I am also loving and capable of giving just to give. That hurts to see the former, and the latter "should" feel good but is eclipsed. Good ol' dichotomy and judging. Today I see it and honor the recognition part. I have always "seen" and committed to dealing, though that is very very fragile and can be sideswiped by criticism. Well, the criticism may be deserved. Then what? So what?
As suggested - mood documentation: A.M. Woke anxious and slightly sore, so rose quickly. This helps. Really want to get out. So... I will, for a bit. And that was good. PM - very anxious and withdrawally. Used food to compensate. Sigh.
