I seem to be good at focusing on details. Very well... let's use that... to stay on a program of supplements and exercise and yoga and meditation and hakomi exercises. The urgency of dealing with possible cancer and surgery seems to be a sufficient jolt.
And... well, we'll start where we are, I suppose.
So... Another suggestion: What I want is not a goal or an attainment (despite the conviction that it is.) "Most of us miss this because we are waiting for circumstances to change so we have an excuse ... to love or be loving. Why wait? "...Allow yourself to explore any feeling or experience with an open mind and heart... you will discover that at its core there is only love."
Qs
Can I find the love in these circumstances?
Can I allow myself to experience the love that is here, now?
... look at what is ACTUALLY here now and let what is reveal itself...
Report today - on task, got some yoga in which is sooo helpful... applying the suggested questions to this sudden access of grief/fear: Circumstances? Yes. I love life and the people and places in it. Imperfectly, yes. For this moment I'm opening the gates anyway. (Overwhelming.) Here/now? Yes, softer. Reveal? (Feel some guilt for past. And that is a memory...)
Off to make green tea and perhaps some nettle pesto?
