The question of the day from my tapes collection is "how would I act if I truly loved this person" - and then to be best of my skill, applying it - not because someone is loved or lovable, but "because they are the way they are and I am the way I am."
This I have been doing and I find it's tiring to open like that all day long. Maybe it's actually more tiring to keep closing down - which requires re-opening. I do think there's an emotional piece that can make illness worse.
It doesn't matter if that's right.
When I am successful at turning my attitude in this direction I experience two things - what it's like to be the way I most would like to be... and the shortfall from doing it "perfectly." And perfect is a mind trap - and also hard to let go of, even though I know how far from it I have been.
Well, let that go for now. It kinda hurts, when what's true is that using this suggestion all day today is like putting drops of aloe on a sunburn. Healing begins.
