I was looking forward to something and... I think I missed it. There wasn't a time set specifically and I've called and written to see if I could get it back on track. But I missed... and it uncovered a big box of depression (anger turned inward). I feel like such a failure - in getting pre-cancer, in alienating people I care about, in being so alone. Such a small stimulus for such a big reaction. I knew it was down in there. I feel so alone and NOT in a good way right now.
This is not good for taking on pre-cancer/surgery.
