This blog is tracking the adventure of learning courage to live, think, love, accept and learn some more as I deal with a recent diagnosis of precancerous tissue and the strong recommendation that the hyperplasia with atypia - which has a 30% chance of becoming cancer... (deep breath).
Likewise, a 70% chance of not.
I found the process of getting tests and feedback scary, and in defense numbed a lot.
Shoot. That's not new.
I've been talking to nurses and friends and friends of friends who have beaten cancer. I find the ideas of alternatives enticing - but failure frightening.
Fear is useful but not as a chronic disease.
So we start where we are.
Today I received some dried nettles from a friend which I put into scrambled eggs as follows:
1 fresh large locally grown brown egg
1/4 cup whole milk
1 thb sesame oil
spices: turmeric and lemon pepper
and: 3 thb home sprouted lentils and 2 thb dried nettles.
delicious. and... here are some things it helps. www.herballegacy.com/Vance_Medicinal.html
Yes, I read it quickly. but "pelvic decongestant" - used for fibroids (some of which I apparently have as well -or so I finally understand), and the iron and vitamin c aspects are things my "small brain" can appreciate.
My big brain (aka spirit or heart or something of that sort) just needs to open and stay there.
Other things: The Chocolate Hakomi lesson of the day was slowing down and also playing with the resistance I don't (want) to admit to. (More fear. More confrontation of the unwillingness to be uncool even though it's frankly too late for THAT!)
The Sedona work was around letting go of control issues.
The yoga was around resistance of the gentle sort... back and forth.
And I bought the Sei Mei tea and am incorporating it into part of my eight glasses of fresh water a day routine.
Namaste, the world. Namaste (me?)
