Blogger was down and I was tired yesterday after a long day with people in meetings and on the road. In past I used to have a problem with – all these wants. I use the phrase I used to have a problem with to remind me about the present moment and not carrying crap into it.
Over and over yesterday I made different decisions – decisions about where to put my attention, being interested, listening. And I messed up some times too. I was torn between hating myself for the mistakes and wanting to pat myself on the back for the – let’s see, at least a couple dozen and probably twice that – number of course corrections I made. Neither is probably appropriate, both/and are true.
I felt really overwhelmed yesterday, and I experience d people differently – in good ways and in ways that I felt ashamed around.Such a big journey, and such a temptation to give it up last night. Woke this morning dreaming repetitive dreams about –something – not unpleasant, just repetitive. Got up quickly, changed breathing… and on with the day. Got some good nutrition and cancer attitude support books.
Over and over yesterday I made different decisions – decisions about where to put my attention, being interested, listening. And I messed up some times too. I was torn between hating myself for the mistakes and wanting to pat myself on the back for the – let’s see, at least a couple dozen and probably twice that – number of course corrections I made. Neither is probably appropriate, both/and are true.
I felt really overwhelmed yesterday, and I experience d people differently – in good ways and in ways that I felt ashamed around.Such a big journey, and such a temptation to give it up last night. Woke this morning dreaming repetitive dreams about –something – not unpleasant, just repetitive. Got up quickly, changed breathing… and on with the day. Got some good nutrition and cancer attitude support books.
Chocolate get together this morning. Didn't discuss hakomi directly. It seemed like just spending time relatively quietly (compared to sometimes) was the way to go.
Biking. Got a gorgeous jar of nettles. He is most kind to me. I don't really deserve this but I am grateful for it. Confessing that I have been so self centered is true but it's done now. "Be interested rather than interesting." Oh... and got feedback that it worked.
Time to run the Sedona tapes I think. And... I am a very fortunate person.
And... positive response is happening.
Time to run the Sedona tapes I think. And... I am a very fortunate person.
And... positive response is happening.
