exercises to fall in love with your own life.

Breakthrough exercises

1

Honor yourself  sentence stems to end 7 different ways for 28 days - go back 2 hours/days/years for the endings.

a) Kathy, I’m proud that you ___(7 dif answers at least)

2

cut shackles to shame, blame, guilt and regret.

b) Kathy, I forgive you for ___ (7 dif answers)

3
Show up for self.  (declaration)

c) Kathy, I commit to you that __ (7 dif answers)

4
Expose the lies 7 days
(7-10 pieces of paper - black pen - each lie in the category, then go back and fill in truths in red pen)

write down the lie (not good enough, etc, in one category at a time)

Skip 4 lines after each lie in each category, but let it run out.
 

categories

a)   health and wellness
b) finance and business
c) relationship, love and familia
d) spirituality and faith

will feel crappy… once you’ve exposed the lies. Now get the red pen and write the truth. Remember - you know there's a truth as you chose that statement - as a lie. Write the truth even if you don’t want to believe it.

Then read the lie/truth for 7 days
On the 7^th days erase/line out the lies.

5

Write yourself a love letter. What I love most about you… admire you for… thank you for being…. I honor you…

brief notes - with such gratitude - after hakomi and soul discussions

Start with feeling… and pursue that… let the “tee up” go.

What is curiosity? Other than a thought? 

 Medical tidbit: Pursue… what I fear about alternatives. START with a Sei Mei e-mail.

Blocks and distractions and filters can be useful and they can stop growth.

Blink… (right now I’m in terrific “blink” state… can hardly think.)

Get acquainted with your soul. You don’t get out of this alive, so what do you want to get into it while you are?

(Resistance and fear there… and “so what?”)  Also I want two things at least – to be safe and to grow. Hinky territory. What can I do in gratitude here? Perhaps there is NO THING when I think that there should be.

Free associate. 

Gratitude - transaction NO! tears. block. fear. worhtless. worth more. wish... transcend... do anything. don NO thing... grieve. Be curious. Moe on.  fear. be the best I can be - the part even I don't know. Give. Give away. Share. Peace. Loving despite. Loving because things are the way they are. I like that. I'm afraid. So what? I'm good a that. How can I be what most I'm meant to be? I think it invloves others. I think there are right things to do. I think acceptance is hard. for me. blessed. no kidding. then what? good enough? silly. but so blessed. Where does this start? stop? start? nowhere. give love...

no I won't

Saw a brief bit about people telling you how to be better (whether they do or don't have permission). Rather than let it go in, "No, I won't" actually works. This is in context with being told how hard things are, but works if someone (including yourself) can not find enoughness in you too.

more hakomi suggestions including applying awareness wheel.

If... it's more "hakomi experience..." you are looking for
  ask yourself  "what it is you are looking for..."
    and capture what bubbles up...
       then go back and ask yourself, again . . .


to love, be loved, operate from a loving heart... to be well and happy and kind - to be love, to be loving.

I dig out my Grace Unfolding, every so often...
  and just let it fall open, where it wants to . . .
     and appreciate what comes up . . .

Apply awareness wheel...

And...  perhaps, as you "wheel yourself around..."

 

  you might notice that even as fast as you transit to "feeling..."

     you have already completed "judgement/thinking" about it

A more deliberated approach... with "noticing, thinking, feeling, wanting and doing..."

  might yield both insight and inspiration . .

small crash

I was looking forward to something and... I think I missed it. There wasn't a time set specifically and I've called and written to see if I could get it back on track. But I missed... and it uncovered a big box of depression (anger turned inward). I feel like such a failure - in getting pre-cancer, in alienating people I care about, in being so alone.  Such a small stimulus for such a big reaction. I knew it was down in there. I feel so alone and NOT in a good way right now.

This is not good for taking on pre-cancer/surgery.

how to stay in a good mood article (emo-do)

http://www.oprah.com/spirit/How-to-Stay-in-a-Good-Mood-Martha-Beck


"No matter how well prepared you are, an emotional mugger may still catch you before you can defend yourself. In the short run, you'll feel violated. In the long run, you can use the experience to become a stronger emo-do practitioner.

To start, dispense with any lingering nasty energy by recognizing that it probably belongs to the mugger, not you. If the negativity won't dissipate, there are two possibilities: Either you really did provoke the attack, or you're operating under the misconception that you deserved it.

Return immediately to basic emo-do code: Stop causing suffering for yourself by thinking you deserved victimization; correct any behaviors that might have triggered the mugging; and, finally, forgive yourself for the whole misadventure.

The way of emo-do is rigorous—and hugely rewarding. The more you follow it, the more muggers will avoid you. Instead of a target, you'll become a walking haven, a place where emotional criminals rarely strike—and if they do, are swiftly rendered harmless. Plan to welcome many of us to walk with you, because that's just the kind of neighborhood where most people want to live. " quote from Beck article.

explorations in sting-y foods (and other stuff)

Sunset has a recipe for nettle pizza. http://www.myrecipes.com/recipe/nettle-pizza-50400000112909/ - I know I have to try this at some point.

I also now have all the stuff to make the acorn bread. It does have flour but also includes a dose of corn meal and mashed potatoes with the acorn meal. We'll see how that goes - it's a yeast bread... it actually is supposed to rise. Just need to find a consistent warm spot - which probably doesn't mean allowing Neko to curl up on it.